Today, I’m Angry

White nationalists carry torches on the grounds of the University of Virginia, on the eve of a planned Unite The Right rally in CharlottesvilleThis morning I watched an online news report from CBS News reporting about the “White Nationalists” in Virginia protesting the removal of a Robert E. Lee statue. Now, we all know our history (some of us), and we are aware of Robert E. Lee. Yes, he is a part of a very important part of our American history, but that part of our history is a painful reminder of what had occurred – the Civil War. The painful reminder is the reason behind the war and it all boils down to the slavery movement.

I’m not going to try to teach a history lesson about this…my goal is to ask why are we still fighting this fight? Why do we have “white nationalists”? On Facebook, there were some comments that incensed me. One comment: “Why is it that when white people protest it’s violent, but when black people protest it’s a movement?” Ummm…. And, another comment “This is what happens when society tries to make you feel ashamed to be white and labels you as a racist because of your political views…” Ummm…Another comment came from a person overseas: “America is a dangerous place. Thank god I don’t live there.”

I am speechless.

My daddy was born in 1917 and he would have been 100 years old this year if he would have lived. 100 years old! It’s 2017 and we are still fighting racism! We are still nowhere near where we need to be!

My dad told me a story once about when he was walking down the street in downtown Tucson in 1949 (around that time). He saw a white woman and her little girl walking towards him, so it was a necessity to step off of the sidewalk to allow the white females to use the sidewalk. As my father did this and they passed by each other, the little girl pointed and said, “Look, mommy, a nigger!” The mother tried to hush the little girl, but my dad smirked and said, “She wouldn’t have said the word unless she was taught the word.” The mother was embarrassed and rushed away.

My father was right. Racism is taught. We want to believe that it is not as bad as it was a century ago, but it is folks. When something is hidden for so long, and it suddenly emerges from the depths of hell, we are shocked and alarmed. Most of us are shocked. I’m not shocked. I am not going to pretend that racism does not exist. Hate exists in this world…on various levels in various place in the world, but there is hate. Blacks and whites are on top of the scale; here in Arizona, people don’t like Mexicans who cross the border (oh…it’s true. People may say it’s because they are crossing illegally, but bottom line it’s because of who they are); religion vs. religion; religion vs. anti-religion; gender vs. gender; sexuality vs. sexuality. All of it has an underlining of hate!

The human race has forgotten how to love! Love has become an obscure term nowadays. To love someone means to have this deep emotion and a big responsibility to keep loving that person. We are too lazy to love and care for people. So, instead we hate, we breed hate, and we keep trying to align Bible scriptures to keep the hate going.

I say ‘we’ because the ones who do this, the rest of us stand by and allow it to continue! I am a spiritual person, and I pray daily for myself, my family, and friends because we do live in dangerous times – just like the commenter said. We don’t know who hates us! I ask God for protection for me, my family, and friends.

I am afraid. Don’t tell me that I shouldn’t be. I’m just reacting, right now. But, my skin is brown…dark brown…and there are some idiotic people out there who don’t know me at all, but hate me because of my skin color. One friend told me that a white man told her, “I’ll never know how it feels to be hated because of my skin color. I don’t know how that feels.”

Exactly. White people don’t know how it feels to be automatically hated and judged because of the color of skin. Most white people are disliked because of their beliefs, their sexuality, their political views…or they are just not likable! But, as a black person, we are not given a chance for people to get to know us. There is an automatic assumption. How do I know this? I don’t. But, when the world is full of racism, and you’re on the other end of it…you have to defend your skin color before you can defend your beliefs!

If you are my reader, and you are white, please don’t take offense. I have to get this out because of what happened today in Charlottesville Virginia. White Nationalists. What does that mean, exactly?

I am not looking for an apology from my friends and family members who are white. Another quote: “Confederates are only answering to the genocidal attack on our culture…”

“Well at least they aren’t burning down buildings and smashing windows and stealing stuff…” (What is that in reference to?)

The CBS News reported that there were protestors who were wearing Nazi Swastikas. They were protesting on the University of Virgina campus – Emancipation Plaza. The students and others counter-attacked the protestors.

“America! America! God shed his grace on thee! And crown thy good with brotherhood from sea to shining sea!”

I’m torn.

I’m sad.

I’m emotional.

I’m angry.

Author: L.S. Watson

Hi. My name is L.S. Watson, and I'm an English teacher at a charter high school. I enjoy traveling (my favorite places are Rome and Paris), writing poetry, and watching documentaries. I have a lovable yet stubborn Yorkie-Poo named Chuy.

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